just felt like writting as not much was clear in my head knowing that we Monday tmrw and to be honnest not much have been clear lately, feel like life is not worth living the way im living it with myself first. not in a depressed kind of way or not being thankfull for what i have, its juste that the equation is not yet.

feels like everyone is running after something and i fels like im not. is it that im just too confortable where im and make myself believe that i want something big that is really far that i keep on doing nothing and thats walking backward, i would say that Omar made me and ensured in a way that i keep on going forward and now that hes not

and also what im trying to solve or just focus my attention with is the lack of memory on the short term, is that my mind starts rooling about something and when i get to it (a conclusion) i keep the conclusion and as wonder about the conclusion of what subject exactely not when im writin as the memory is written

so to keep things clear

my name is Ismail Jaouane the last of three kind coming from Rahal who decends from asian parents in my head and Ouedghiri Latifa decending from arab parents apparently born both fron the mid atlas montain tryiing to make the best of their situation and its the first thing i care about concerning where im coming from. and concerning where im and where my path will be cleared i quit a subjet and where my thoughts are not clear and where philosophy of life intervene to make things as clear as possible and thats apparently an answer that people normaly acquire in they mid 30 and that i had i a way with Mamoun before the accident in 2017 almost 5 years from now, it would have been great in a way but a lesson must have been learned.